Loosening Up

This week(well last week now) was kind of weird. Work was decent all week, the weather was nice and one of those days I was sick but was still going. When I have a fever and feeling sick all day, I want to know why and where it came from but I have no clue. Same thing happened to me earlier this year. It was just a one day thing.

Caught the Friday Night Blues and was bored out since up until maybe 20 minutes before I started writing this(last night). Then something said write so that’s what I’m doing.

I’ve been marinating a lot lately and there are some things I need to get out of system. Holding shit in is like biting your tongue, literally. It’s not a good feeling. Even when you’re talking to someone and you don’t say things because you feel they will react a certain why. Man fuck all that shit. I don’t like that feeling. I mean, if I can’t speak my mind there’s no point of me talking to you.

I had decided to try to stop using the word “ignorant” but I find it really hard to not use the word with all the ignorant shit going on. It is Election year and damn, there’s just too much ignorance in the air. The word ignorant doesn’t seem as bad as calling you a dumb ass or dumb ass muthafucka or wasted nut. Hey, it could all mean the same but I’m trying to be nice about it.  

I’m ready to post my views on my dis-ease. That was a blog that I was hesitating to post for a year and a half. Why? Because I was worried about how a certain person(s) would feel. The problem was I wasn’t worried about the right person and that person was MYSELF. It’s my feelings and my feelings mean way more than yours do(not trying to be mean but it’s the truth, ain’t it?).  If I’m posting straight bullshit, call me out on that shit, anytime.

I’m starting to wonder, maybe I was feeling sick with that sore throat because I was keeping quiet? Then it was all eating me up inside so it caused a fever? Interesting right? Learned that from the book You Can Heal Your Life by Louise L. Hay. Sounds on point to me.

That’s all I have at the moment, one blog at a time.