Loosening Up

This week(well last week now) was kind of weird. Work was decent all week, the weather was nice and one of those days I was sick but was still going. When I have a fever and feeling sick all day, I want to know why and where it came from but I have no clue. Same thing happened to me earlier this year. It was just a one day thing.

Caught the Friday Night Blues and was bored out since up until maybe 20 minutes before I started writing this(last night). Then something said write so that’s what I’m doing.

I’ve been marinating a lot lately and there are some things I need to get out of system. Holding shit in is like biting your tongue, literally. It’s not a good feeling. Even when you’re talking to someone and you don’t say things because you feel they will react a certain why. Man fuck all that shit. I don’t like that feeling. I mean, if I can’t speak my mind there’s no point of me talking to you.

I had decided to try to stop using the word “ignorant” but I find it really hard to not use the word with all the ignorant shit going on. It is Election year and damn, there’s just too much ignorance in the air. The word ignorant doesn’t seem as bad as calling you a dumb ass or dumb ass muthafucka or wasted nut. Hey, it could all mean the same but I’m trying to be nice about it.  

I’m ready to post my views on my dis-ease. That was a blog that I was hesitating to post for a year and a half. Why? Because I was worried about how a certain person(s) would feel. The problem was I wasn’t worried about the right person and that person was MYSELF. It’s my feelings and my feelings mean way more than yours do(not trying to be mean but it’s the truth, ain’t it?).  If I’m posting straight bullshit, call me out on that shit, anytime.

I’m starting to wonder, maybe I was feeling sick with that sore throat because I was keeping quiet? Then it was all eating me up inside so it caused a fever? Interesting right? Learned that from the book You Can Heal Your Life by Louise L. Hay. Sounds on point to me.

That’s all I have at the moment, one blog at a time. 

My Views on L&HHA

Even though the season has been over for a few weeks, like many others, I got hooked on watching Love and Hip Hop Atlanta. I mean, it’s like watching any other reality show, makes you wonder “why in the hell am I watching this garbage”? Whether or not these people are acting, this type of stuff is really going on out here. The first person that I just couldn’t believe was Stevie J.

He is the basic cliché’ player with no shame in his game type. I wasn’t feeling dude at all until after his fight with Lil Scrappy and I’ll get to Lil Scrappy shortly.

I’m on this kick right now of trying to accept people for who they are. Stevie J is a lying ass player. He is not the problem(depending on how you look it at). Mimi and Joseline are the ones with the issues, more Mimi than Joseline. 

Let me explain. Stebie, opps, I mean Stevie ain’t trying to change nobody nor is he trying to change the person he is. He made a statement while they all were in council together. Yes, the wifey aka person he’s been with for like 15 years and the creep were all in council together, haaa.  Joseline, (on the left) be on some weird shit but she accepted dude for who he was. Basically she said she already knows he’s going to do him and as long as he is giving her what she wants, she’s cool with that. Mimi(on the right), even after 15 years just could not accept Stevie for who he was. Why is she still with this dude after all those years? She claims it for the 3 or 4 year old kid they have? I mean, what about the first 10 years before that, why did you stay with this dude?  Mimi, you can miss me with that bullshit.

I started to feel bad for her because something is wrong or missing inside her. She’s the typical chick that’s down with her guy while he treats her. She gets on his ass about it but could never walk away.

Momma Dee is a trip. She seems like a cool person but as a parent, ehh. She’s supposedly some type of pimptress from the old school and she taught her son the same playa ways.

No wonder Lil Scrappy is confused when trying to deal with relationships. Parenting gone wrong, haa. She loved her boy though.  The thing I didn’t like about Lil Scrappy was when he got into with Stevie J for calling he’s “baby’s momma” a bitch. C’mon man, he’s baby’s momma was making fun of Stevie J, then got caught up by Stevie and called a bitch. What’s wrong with that?? Stevie said he was in the wrong and was going to apologize to her and that he did. Maybe it was because Joseline was talking mad shit when they finally all met but why were Stevie and Scrappy fighting if dude apologized? Proud is a bitch. 

Out of everybody, I liked this two, Rasheeda and Kirk. They were a good example of a team, a relationship, aka a marriage. They had their ups and downs but stood by one other through it all. I’d like to see more of this.

“At the end the day”

I thought this show was interesting. Even people that we see on TV do dumb shit. Having money doesn’t make you better than that struggling person working for minimum wage. Keep your heart away from playas and rat ass bitches. Don’t have kids with a person you already know ain’t shit. Don’t let money be the reason you ain’t shit and just be glad that if your shit smells like any of the people in this show that you aren’t being filmed for the world to smell it.

P.S.

If your body is shaped like this

I don’t’ think you need to be in the camera much. Benzino looks like a middle age elder body having ass dude. 

Intermision: Coming Soon

It’s almost that time again…..

….the anxiety is building…

…just a little over 2 months away…

…it’s better than any holiday…

…even Thanksgiving…

….it’s like my 2^nd Birthday and Christmas all in one…

…I can’t wait…

…to go broke…

…COMING SOON…

…who’s going with me?...

I Caught A S.T.D.

This is personal to me but it’s better out then in. I’m just going to get to the point. I have a disease and I’ve had for a very very very long time. It wasn’t until a few years ago that I started to accept it. Before that, I ignored the symptoms and kept going on like nothing was wrong. It took a lot of heartache, broken hearts, confusing and some more shit to truly accept that I have this disease.

I’m not sure when I caught it or from who exactly but I first saw the symptoms when I was a fresh 17 years young. My girlfriend at the time had just broke up with me(maybe I broke up with her?). Then I noticed that something wasn’t right. I don’t think I caught it from her though. I think I was born with it?

I’ve been to the doctors and they could never tell me what this disease was. I’ve talked to people about it but no one had any answers for me. What is this S.T.D. I have?   

Finally, after many years of going through the motions, I figured out what this disease was. It does have a name. The dis-ease is called Anti-Relationshipism. 

“S.T.D. = Stay Thinking Deep” ~ Koolaid “Da BlacGhost”