I met
this chick many years ago that set something off in me that I had never felt
before. When we first met her, I had a good feeling inside of me. So good that
I started whistling while I worked and for some reason started having a lot
flash backs at the time. Told a friend of mine that I had a winner. These
feelings lasted for months. I was on the defense though, not wanting a
relationship and she did.
I think
we had watched Jungle Fever one day and I heard some Stevie Wonder songs so I
started downloading more of his music. I came across Overjoyed. At the time,
unknowingly, I wanted change. Change to the point that I was willingly to move
out of town to where this chick lived if I had got a job paying enough for me
to move.
By this
time, I was all happy and listening to Steve Wonder. I didn’t tell her what I was feeling inside.
Probably because I didn’t know what I was feeling nor did I understand it. Just
knew I had this feeling inside of me. Well, the job turned me down. Maybe a
month after that, this chick cut me loose. No explanation or anything, just
gone.
I can
remember one night, about 2 weeks after the last time we talked, I had been
sipping on some trusty ol Gin. She called and I snapped. All I got were excuses
and nothingness. I was devastated on a whole new level of devastation.
After
that night, I couldn’t drink alone for years. I think I stopped drinking for a
while because it would depress me. It took a little over two months for me to
begin to get myself together. The whole time I was depressed and lost, I was
listening to Overjoyed on repeat……
Kind of
hate that I like the song but she crosses my mind when I hear it. I’m not in
pain anymore but I don’t want to think of someone like her when I’m listening
to good music.
Damn. That's life for ya...
ReplyDeleteI know right. I'm thinking about writing about the situation cause I learned an ugly lesson from it.
DeleteI was riding as a passenger in my friends car in the late 70's and it was first time I used acid, and the first time I heard the song Dust in the Wind. I laid in the back seat curled up in a ball crying that there was no God and life meant nothing. I couldn't listen to that song for years. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fiD5No_JJWo&feature=related
ReplyDeleteDang, sounds like your were trippin off that acid?
Deletekhilutgut???? HAHAHAH WTF? don't know how that name appeard, maybe i'll use it as an alias.
ReplyDeleteSybil.
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