Been feeling pretty good lately. It’s the “holidays” once
again. just a few years ago or so, I was
like Christmas doesn’t matter, the holidays suck, they aren’t the same as they
used to be, I liked them when I was kid, I ain’t buying nobody shit. I keep my
memories in mind all the time but that can sometimes be a problem.
A Memorable Moment is usually a good thing for me BUT it’s also
memory that has passed and probably will never happen again. At least it won’t
happen the way it did exactly. Took me a minute to get that.
Each year for Christmas, I reminisce on the days when I was
a kid and how good it felt during the holidays. I still have that kid in me
today. A couple of years ago, a few days before Christmas, something came over
me. I decided to buy my first Christmas tree. It put me in the Christmas spirit
and hadn’t felt that feeling in a long long time. I wrapped my own gifts to
myself just to get the full feeling of having present under the tree. It was a
success.
Last Christmas, did the same but had more gifts for others
than myself. I even got to play Santa’s helper and watch some kids open presents
Christmas morning. Just seeing them smile made me feel good. It was a success.
Since the past is gone and I can’t “relive it”, why not make
new memories that will one day be memorable moments? This year, it’s not even
really about Christmas Day or New Years. I haven’t even really thought about
the actually days or what I’m doing do on them. It’s more about the feeling of
Christmas. That’s the kid in me doing what he does and it feels good. I learned
a long time ago that if I wanted something, I had to get it myself so I don’t
expect anything for Christmas. Getting presents was a big part of why I liked
Christmas so much as a kid. Me giving somebody a present then seeing or hearing
their reaction feels good enough for me. I’ll take that. The actually Christmas
day hasn’t even came and I’ve already got that from someone. Anything else that
happens will be more to add to the memories. It was a success.
Usually I wrap stuff for myself but didn’t this year. I
didn’t plan to exchange gifts with anyone this year so I put numbers on some of
the presents and put some numbers in a jar. If I have any company, they can
just grab a number out the jar and I’ll give them that gift with that number.
That way I’m good, you good, we good.
If something or a time of the year in your past made you
feel good, it’s possible that something in your present can make you feel good.
Just feel around for it. It’s usually inside you somewhere.
Same goes for something or a time of the year that makes you
feel bad from your past, it’s possible to change that. Try it.
Happy Holidays!!!!
